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I relapsed, pleasee look at my situation and help me with advice

2021.11.28 15:28 producer8 I relapsed, pleasee look at my situation and help me with advice

I lasted 28 days. 6 months of streaks like these, but before I was almost 1 year sober.
For context, my todays journal: JOURNAL
Yesterday I had so much sex and today I felt a little bit of chaser when I stumbled upon something triggering on reddit (I was posting something for my business).
Then I prayed, played guitar, did some work outside, worked out, finished my shower with ice cold water, ate healthy, conversated with my gf and listened to podcast about addiction.
Everything was good, but the urge didn't go away. I forgot about it when I was doing all the other stuff, but then when I should have studied on the computer it came back. It wasn't even that strong. It was urge to search something up, maybe peak. We all know how this ends.
I watched stuff for 15-20 minutes (I lost track of time), and I didn't touch myself and in the end I just finished it.
I felt strong today as fuck. I did everything to prevent the urge, but my mind was resisting hard. I don't take it as total defeat, because I don't need that mindset. That is how my ! year strike started, I did it once after 26 days and then refused to give in (usually when I relapse I binge).
I don't know what would fix it, only the sleep probably. It doesn't matter if I watched it through reddit, I feel I would find any way to do it. Searching google, reddit, tiktok I don't know.
What the fuck was this day?
If I would not give a fuck would I also relapse? Today I gave it my best, but still failed, but I am on better path now.
Tomorrow I am home alone and I feel confident about it.
Also when I was in relapse 6 months I had this mindset that I cheated on my gf with porn. I still have it, but I don't want to stress about it, because we love each other very much and have the most amazing weekends and I can bounce back from this with minor scratches so that is why I am not too much down and depressed right now.
Fuck I said lifetime sobriety.. that feels like a little lie right now.. But I will do like I did last year, bounce back and one year streak, but this time I aim for lifetime (the validity in my statements.. haha..).
I don't know how I should have handled that day better other than going to sleep 4 hours earlier and just end the day there.
Maybe my mindset, but I was very strong today. Something in me wanted to peak and to feel the dopamine before I find something.
Fuck I don't know. I feel like I let everybody including me down, but on the other hand I feel confident that I can bounce back.
Give me ideas how I should spend tomorrow when I am alone, but I have to study on my computer and do the work.
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